Moments I want to remember...

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

My Mini Me!!!

This past Friday I really saw the results of my lil Mini Me!!! I went to help out Aimee at Banana's Bday party, but I ended up being the photog for my Mini Me
Here are the results:
Mini Me: Aunnie, take a picture of me and you
Me: Yes Baby


Mini Me: Lemme See Lemmsee....Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww we're so cuuuute Aunnie

Mini Me(MM): Aunnie, you take a picture with my sister and you and me
Me: Yes baby


MM: Lemme See Lemmsee......Awwwwwwwwww, I love it Aunnie

MM: Now me and My Sister Neeeeah, okay Aunnie

Me: Yes, of course Baby


MM:Lemme See Lemmsee

MM: Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww but Aunnie she not looking, one more please


MM:Lemme See Lemmsee

MM: Look at the Camera Neeeah, Aunnie's taking a picture, LOOK!!!!!!!


MM: MM:Lemme See Lemmsee

MM: Awwwwwwwwwwww I so cute Aunnie, awwwwwwwwwwwwwww she's not looking, aunnie, please


MM:Lemme See Lemmsee

MM: Aunnie I love it, awwwwwwwwwwwwww, we're so cute, more


Okay you get the point right, here are the rest of the pics, well not all of them but a few more from that moment

MM: Take one of me and my Daddy!! Come on Daddy, look at the camera, Aunnie, call Daddy!! Noooo kisses Daddy...the camera (oh that is my child and I love it!!!!!)

Now this one, below was the best for me. MM was standing by my side with her arm wrapped around my leg and I am getting the camera ready to take a pic, yelling at the girls to SMILE, cuz you don't look cool, girls just smile...okay ready?


and then I look at it to make sure it isn't blurry and MM says: Am I in it? Lemme see Lemmesee

She was soooooooooooo proud of herself for being in the pic with the big girls, I mean how freakin adorable is my MM???

On Sunday we had another party and her Mom gave her the camera and I sware she took like 8 pics of herself and then kodak moments with all her friends and ME!!!! ;) I am beggin her Mom to get her a camera with her bday money, BEGGING!!!!!!!! I mean look at her!!! and everyone she looks at afterwords is the cutest bestest most adorable picture ever in her eyes!!!

Friday, April 25, 2008

There's have the talk and then there's QUESTIONS

So here I am again, wanting to share all kinds of fun stuff and uncomfortable moments but I just don't have the time, nor do I truly make an effort to make the time. I thought the other day I will just use pictures to update my blog, since I carry my camera everywhere I go and document every moment there is in my life. Then there are moments that I can't document on camera like when my 13 yr old daughter wants to know what certain things mean after she has watched a lifetime movies about teens and STD's spreading mean. Hmmmmmmm, talk about an uncomfortable moment that as a parent I wasn't prepared for. There are many scenarios and topics I try and come up with and think how am I going to handle this when it comes up, I go through a million different explanations in my head and even run them by friends/parents to get other thoughts, but when that moment comes you can never be truly prepared. (or at least I am not)
I am very honest with my girls, always try to answer questions as clear and straight as I can w/o going overboard. I have a truly amazing bond with them and feel comfortable knowing when they have questions they will seek me out first because I have always been straight with them even when I haven't wanted to, even when I wasn't sure and had doubts that they were not "old enough" to hear the answer I was going to share. They have always taken it in and have seemed to appreciate my honesty and my trust in them. I am nervous about the day that is coming when they want to know how old I was when it happened, when I did it, when I kissed a boy and what happens after that. I told myself I would never lie to them, I told myself, even if it is painful and they may throw it in my face down the road I will be honest with them and now here they are at 13 and I feel myself running the other way from Honesty.
I feel guilt about this, serious guilt, I try to convince myself that I was brought up differently and that things happened in my childhood that made my teenage years different then theirs will be. I try to convince myself that a little white lie at this stage in the game will be okay, but it eats me up inside and I haven't even told one yet!!!!!!!! My saving grace to all this is I have wonderful friends who I can use as examples of waiting and my Mom too and I will use them, but I know the question is going to come and that they are going to want answers and I don't want them to have skewed ideas about if Mom did it it must be okay.
I want their innocence to last as long as possible, I want them to respect themselves and not seek out love from boys, I want them to have values and confidence enough to say NO and steer clear of anything that would make them uncomfortable. I want to be able to tell them the truth in a way that will keep them safe and discouraged from going down that path too soon, I want to teach them respect of their bodies and minds. I want to instill all that I lost as a child. I want them to not go with the crowd or do things to be popular, I want their confidence and self esteem to shine above all that they are not ready for.
Okay, so the conversation has opened my eyes that my babies, my lil babies that I could once hold in my hand literally are growing up and I want to keep holding their hands with the one that held them for the first time.
This moment....although I wish I had the camera in my hand, I could not document with a picture! However her reaction was priceless to my response and one that although uncomfortable and scary made me belly laugh. I love my children I love them with every breath I take and I want to give them what I didn't have, I know how cliche that sounds, but I truly mean it. I want them to have it all!!!!!
At almost two months

My girls are growing up, my precious babies

Wednesday, April 09, 2008


So I was reading one of the many forwards I get a day, because, well I don't know why, I usually scan through them if nothing else. Well now I know why, you never know when you might come across a tid bit of information that will make you smile or make your day.

So, I was reading one of those forwarded jokes or something and at the bottom is a quote I can totally relate with:

(drum roll) here it is:
"Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections."

I think this just might be how I get through each day smiling and feeling thankful and blessed!!!

I love it!

Maybe I should have my teenage girls say it to me every night before bed! ;)

Friday, April 04, 2008

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