Moments I want to remember...

Friday, November 30, 2007

Happy Friday and Happy Me

So every night for the past three days I have gotten on the computer with the sole intention of blogging!!! I told someone very important that I would try to make more of an effort to Blog more even if it is nonsense and every night I have found a million other things I end up doing and then when I am done with those and I remember why it is I turned the computer on in the first place, I don’t wanna anymore. So, it is Friday morning and it is beautiful outside and I am feeling SUPER happy, not for any particular reason, just happy in my soul. Which I know is usually very normal for me but I have had a few rough weeks of crazy woman tantrums and I am SOOOOO done with it. Don’t get me wrong, I love my emotions, but I need ups to come with the downs I don’t deal with to many down days in a row and probably cause again, not used to it and it just doesn’t feel right. Oh and my down days are way way way down, like end of the world as we know it. As I have matured I have learned that the world really isn’t going to end and I have to remind myself that I am just goin through something and IT will get better, but holy moly my heart, my soul and my body, they would tell you a different story, thank goodness my mind has wised up a wee bit and I can listen to it.
So, feelin good!!! Feelin great!!! If I could explain it in words it is like, when you are super sick, like can't get out of bed, fever, chills, throwin up, aches and pains and then you wake up the next morning and feel completely better, like brand new. That is how I am feeling today: BRAND NEW!!! :)
M.F. must think I am NUTZ, out of my mind and yet he still deals and puts up with my and all my issues. I think he said last night, "I know YOU and I know that if I just let you get through it and am there for you, you will, you always do" Out of everyone in my life, he probably gets the worst of it cause he is any easy target for me to take all my emotions out on. It helps that I know after 8 years of having me in his life there probably isn't much I could say to him that would scare him away. The last two times we hung out I wasn't myself and he notices right away. Yes, I think that is special, but everyone else says, "Hello ding bat, a stranger would know." He makes me talk it out or try to anyway. His conclusion was I missed my friend. I think he was right. Even though he drives me up a tree most of the time, when I need him, when I really need him to be there and take care of me, he does. He hugged me and rolled me around on the bed, he tickled me and he told me beautiful and positive things. He put a movie on and wrapped his arms around me and just held me and then said things like, "U good? What else do you need from me?". That's a friend, one who puts up with your shi* and then tries hard to turn it around. Of course I tell him it's cause he is selfish and it is easier on him when I am good and that's why he wants me to be good!!! I know I am crazy sometimes. The thing is I acknowledge it and never deny it and it is what makes me ME!!!
It's Friday, Friday and what am I going to accomplish this weekend??? I would like to get the tree up, find my winter gear (gloves, hats, scarfs), hang out with my girls (the grown-up ones and the lil ones), go to the gym twice, take five walks, maybe I should shoot for 7 walks, cause I will knock two of them out tonight, yea, 7 is a better number, take my car to get it fixed, take junk to storage and I have to put blinds up in the girls room, that is a priority!!! and if I have time after all that, I would like to make my Christmas list of what I need to buy and figure out my budget, cause I am not workin with a lot this year after my mother has sucked me dry!!!!!! I love her though!!!! :)
Happy Friday!!! Happy Weekend!!!! Happy Harmony!!!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Thanksgiving Weekend

You know how normally when you have a four day weekend it goes by so fast it seems as though you didn't have anytime off, well not this year. In fact by Sunday evening it felt like I had been off for a week. I don't know if it was because I was just on vacation for Clussitas wedding or not, but I liked it!!!! I was Super busy too, it makes no sense to me and I am still trying to process it but I am THANKFUL for it. I came in to work yesterday refreshed and ready to go. (I also went to bed at 915 Sunday night)

Wed: went to work and got off 90 minutes early, whooooooo-hooooo and thanks to HOV and carpool was home in 25 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) Took a little snoozer, woke up and went to get some goodies for "Movie Night" with the neighborhood kids. We all met up at the club house at about 730ish and watched "Hairspray", they loved it and so did I. It was a great movie to watch with a bunch of teens to see their reactions and listen to their comments. I sware they must forget I am sitting in the back chillin. We all walked as a group and dropped everyone off at home and then the girls and I headed home. As usual they are so appreciate of the little things I do with them and it's all worth it.

TURKEY DAY: got up at 730 and started cooking. I made a cake and cupcakes, two pumpkin pies, green bean casserole w/ sausage gravy, sweet potatoes, corn bread, honey coated ham and stuffing. Relaxed and hung out with my babies! Got lots of text messages and calls of Happy Thanksgivings which made me smile!!!!!!!!! Headed over to D's house to eat with friends and family. Stuffed our faces and sat around the table and talked and laughed until our belly's hurt. Thought about calling my Mas many times to give her a big ol' laugh, because we had so many of those moments!!! Headed home.

Friday: Woke up and took the girls, Bananna and Titi to see enchanted at 1045 am. So you would think on Black Friday that the movies wouldn't be packed early in the am on this day, but sure enough they were. We went to see "Enchanted", it was great. Of course since we went to the Mills to watch the movie we had to walk around and the store they wanted to go to was at the OTHER end of the mall it took us two hours to get there and then maybe a hour in the freakin store where they can't afford anything. Friday night the girls had a friend, C, spend the night. I cooked dinner and we went to BBs to get movies.

Saturday: Woke up extra early to get all the girls in the shower to wash their hair so we could go get it done. YEAH!!!! I got my haircut too, just trimmed nothing dramatic or exciting. Headed over to Aims to chill and pick up Banana. Back to my house and cook YUMMY chili, everyone had seconds. Then I got some popcorn and soda together and headed up to the clubhouse for another "Movie Night". This time Aim and lil Ci joined us for a fun Christmas movie. It was great. I had two beers and was tore up from the floor up, it's crazy!!!

Sunday: RELAXED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chilled and got some stuff done around the House!!!

It was a great weekend!! Here are a few pics
Gma and baby Nana at Thanksgiving
Girls after they got their hair did

I had one from movie night, but....uh-oh I deleted it and it is not on this puter

Hope everyone had a wonderful, thankful and blessed holiday with family and friends!!


Wednesday, November 21, 2007

My Clussita, My friend.......... I miss you

A friend is someone who brightens your day with a smile,a warm hello, or gentle words from the heart.A friend is a precious gift to be cherishedand nurtured. A friend is a treasure beyond worth.I am so grateful to call you my friend!!-----(-----(-----@ @----)----)-----by Anonymous

Each of us has a hidden placeSomewhere deep within ourselves;A place where we go to get away,To think things through,To be alone, to be ourselves.This unique place, where we confront our deepest feelings,Becomes a storehouse of all our hopes,All our needs, all our dreams,And even our unspoken fears.It encompasses the essence of who we are and what we want to be.But now and then, whether by chance or design,Someone discovers a way into that place we thought was ours alone.And we allow that person to see, to feel and to shareAll the reason, all the uncertaintyAnd all the emotion we've stored up there.That person adds new perspective to our hidden realm,Then quietly settles down in his own corner of our special place,Where a bit of himself will stay forever.And we call that person a friend.