Moments I want to remember...

Thursday, October 30, 2008

listening and learning

I hate trying to come up with a title when I just want to write what I want to write and be done. Maybe I should just write and not even think about the title and then go back to it after writing.

So I have not been good about sticking with my initative to stay on top of this blog thing this week. I mean here it is Thursday, YEAH!!!!! Thursday again, already, how do the weeks keep flying by and when will it slow down. It seems I miss alot of the week but Thursdays they seem to stick out for me and maybe because it's one day before Friday and I love Fridays even if I have to be at work for 8 hours, which I don't hate. I enjoy coming to work and I am thankful for that.

Soooooooooooooooo...back to where i just wanted to write. Lots has been going on and my mind is racing and I am overwhelmed to a certain point with life, or maybe just other peoples lives, not really my own. My life, well, it is good and I am happy and my kids are wonderful, although they can do better in school. When people ask me how am I doing the first word that comes to mind is blessed, the second wonderful. and I know because I have had lots of how are yous this morning. My circle of friends however, it seems like lots is going on and not leaning towards wonderful. For me that is hard, one because I am a fixer, a care taker, a problem solver, a believer in this to shall pass, we WILL get through this and we can. AND...when it is one person in my circle it is okay I can take on the negative vibes and the whoa is me and HELP...when it feels like it is my whole circle, it affects me and HARD. I know I can not save the world but DAMNIT I will give it my best shot and try as hard as I can and give it my all when it comes to those around me and the people I love and care about. Reality as SMACKED me in the face that sometimes I can't do it all and I just have to pray and put all my faith in God and my friends and stand back. I am sure I have done this in the past too, but not a time that I can pull up out of my memories. Probably cause I try to ONLY store the good ones and let the bad ones go.

My, what I thought was a permenant, sleepover has ended and it is a good thing. It is neat to sit back and watch your friends grow. Not really grow up but just grow as a person and for the better. It is even better when you watch that friend figure it out on their own and then you can cheer them on and support their own strengths they have drawn from and their own ideas and solutions. I have watched a lot of my closest friends really grow in the last year or two. I have seen some incredible changes and for the better. I have watched them learn about themselves and the stregnths they have within them and when to dig deep and pull it out. I have watched them go through things and have major success come out of it all and for me it is INCREDIBLE. I love it and it warms my heart and their success are mine as much as theirs so it encourages me and fills me with positive energy and fight and I love it!!! It has also taught me many things about myself, like how much of a freaking enabler I am!!!! I soothe, I coddle, I am the one that will convince you IT will be alright, but I am also recognizing that isn't always the best, nor does it always help the person at hand, my friend. The other thing I have learned it I chose TOUGH hard ass friends who give it to me straight and maybe expect the samething in return. I also make sure I have the one friend who will take care of my soul, my feelings, my emotions, the fact that I am beyond sensative and chose her words carefully and guess what...she is the one I run to first. She also gives it to me straight and tough but with an approach I can handle and actually listen to w/o running to the corner to hide. I tried to use what I ahve learned from her and how she deals with me to deal with this last craziness of the world and I think it made a diffence. I thank her for being the incredible friend she is and a great influence on me because I think she is an incredible woman all around. I am so grateful to have her in my life and to know when I am down I can call on her. I am so blessed to call her my friend and I am so lucky to have a friend like her in my corner which gives me the stregnth to be there for my many other best friends. I trust her and I listen to her and more importantly I hear her and I am so grateful to be so blessed and lucky to have someone like her in my life..someone I KNOW and am 1000% positive has my best interest at heart all the time everytime w/o a doubt. Thank you my soul mate, my friend, thank you for all your words and all the help!!!! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

W.W. Apple Picking on the perfect day

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

A busy weekend that was wonderful

Friday I got off work and commuted home with the guys, which is always a good time! I couldn't wait to get home and start my weekend!! YEAH! M.F. was suppose to come over and bring the girls their shoes he customed designed for them. I didn't tell them, just in case he decided not to show. I started cooking dinner and hanging out with my girls, cleaning the kitchen and Ty says.."Is M.F. coming?" I look out the window and what do you know, he is here @ like 530. The girls attack him as he walks through the door, adorning him with hugs and love. Ty slickly (is that a word, I don't think so) asks about the boxes in hand. While I go back to cooking he finally gives in and gives them their shoes. They screamed with excitement and jumped up and down, more hugs and love, more screams. You could see the excitement in their eyes. We ate dinner and hung out. It was a nice night.

The Shoes...

Saturday I slept in..made some breakfast..watched some Lifetime and headed over to J's house for a gathering of the sisters. The girls were soooo very excited to see their sisters. J bought pumpkins for them to carve also. We drove the long drive there and hung out for a few hours, it was really nice. The girls had a wonderful time together.

Sat. night Ty had a friend over and Trish stayed with her sister T.

Sunday we went apple picking, the girls and their friends and I.

Pics to come!!!!!!!! :)

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Stress.....when it sneaks up on you

I had a weekend...filled with fun, excitement, friends, good times, and a lil bit of stress thrown in there. Friday night Aim and I went to the Annandale H.S. Homecoming football game. We planned to have a mini reunion and watch the game. Aim came to my house after work and we hung out and then changed clothes. As we are getting ready it felt just like it did ehhhmmmm many years ago when we would get ready to go to a game. ;) It was a funny feeling and one I have found myself experiencing lots lately...with her in particular. We got to the game late...parked far away cause it was PACKED!! I don't remember it being like that and Aim brought up a good point, it's cause we used to walk to the game...parking wasn't an issue. So we met up with our former AHS friends and sat on the other side, cause it was NUTS. Aim and I purchased AHS shirts to represent on the other side in the stands. We had a great time. We went to Glory Days and ate good and talked.

Sat. was another story it started off great!! I went to meet my carpool guys so they could change my breaks, because THEY were not feeling safe. I was supposed to be Apple Picking, but they got my priorities straight and I went there instead. We had a nice time until the I hear the guys make some noises and use some words that should be while putting on breaks. I went outside and my tires are shining from across the lawn...hmmmmm...that's not normal. The insides of my tires were sooooooooooooooooooo worns that they were reflecting the sun. All I can think is, this can't be good. I have worn tires down to lil pieces of straight metal. So I went and got some tires put on and that was that.

By Monday morning I felt super guilty for being as upset as I was over something so minor with all the chaos in the world today!!!

Thursday, October 09, 2008

W.W. on Thursday....I forgot yesterday was W.W.

FAMILY!!!!!! This is mine...



Tuesday, October 07, 2008

That AGE.............

This past weekend really woke me up as far as my girls are getting older and not wanting to do all the fun things we did when they were younger (ummm, this past summer). We went to a fall festival and I was so excited to go on the hay ride, paint pumpkins, and make a girls, not so much!!! Now granted there were lots of other things going on, but those things that I was looking forward to doing with them they replied, "No thanks Mom". It made me sad. I am so glad I raised them to be nature children and appreciate the beauty of the outdoors, because I still got that. This weekend we are going apple picking and they are thrilled. They love camping and hiking and even just going for walks to watch the sunset. I acted like a two yr old when it hit me that they are maturing and told them I was going to have more kids so I would have someone that wants to hangout with me. Of course they objected like you wouldn't believe and then went to the pet-a-pet farm with me!! ;) I win!!! A big group of us went so I my lil protege' that wanted to take pictures and ride the ponies and do alllll the fun things Auntie! So I spent most of my time with my lil baby!!! On Sunday we did my company picnic and had more quality time together. I love my lil girls/young ladies and I am learning to accept they are growing up!!!

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

W.W. 18 years later

Then 1990

Now 2008