Storm before the Calm???

One of the worst days of my life, probably the most emotional since Ryan and I broke up almost a year ago. My daughter walked in the house last night and all her hair was GONE, that’s right, GONE. My friend’s Mom cut it off. Didn’t say anything to me, didn’t ask me just tied her hair up in four little ponytails and cut. My heart is broken. I didn’t even know what to do but go up to my room and cry. I felt angry and enraged and wanted to hurt someone. All I kept saying to myself is …”Why” and “WTF”. I can’t even put my baby’s hair in to one ponytail. It is so short in the back that it just sticks out and uneven from every angle. I am still sick, working on getting over it, but SICK and disgusted that someone has the balls to do this. I brushed her hair out to see how truly bad it was and lost it. I threw on my sweat jacket and tennis shoes and went running out in the pouring rain, screaming and crying. I am so upset because 1. She had NO RIGHT 2. My baby loved having long hair 3. My own issues of when I was younger and couldn’t grow my hair out 4. SHE HAD NO RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I called my Mom and she of course wanted to call her which would have done NO GOOD, so I said NO, but she talked to me until I calmed down. I went back home and hung out with the girls for a little and got them to bed. I laid down in bed and cried myself to sleep. What a day!!!!

This morning I wok up to sunshine and my beautiful daughters’ standing above me with a precious present for my Birthday, earrings and a necklace, I love it. I also working on letting this go, because there is really nothing I can do about it at this point.