Made it through one more day and night

Last night I did it, I made myself exercise. I felt really ucky for some reason the last half of the day. So, my plan was to go home and clean the house and get the laundry put away, HAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! So, I threw the pork chops in the oven and made up my mind I would just go walk on the treadmill, maybe it would make me feel better. So, I threw on the work out clothes, grabbed the water bottle and headed over. I started out walking and than picked up the pace and before I knew it my 10 minutes was up and I was over a half a mile and I was feeling better. So, I stretched a little and hopped on the elliptical machine and went another ten minutes and did a mile! YEAH! So, the girls were in luck cause I was feeling much better and so we went to the pool. No laps this time, just did lots of bouncing and leg exercises, hopped across the pool. Hee Hee! Came home and had a delicious dinner, pork chops, green beans and mac and cheese. After dinner I cleaned the kitchen thoroughly and it needed it and started folding clothes.

I have been trying to stay very busy up until I am about to fall asleep so I don’t think about Ry. Last night was so far the hardest. I just kept thinking about how he felt when he read that horrible angry letter I sent. I was scared he might come over and flip out on me. I even locked my bedroom door and had 911 programmed in the phone so all I had to do was hit redial. I am paranoid. I don’t think he would really hurt me, but you never know how people might react to such hateful hurtful words, especially when all my actions are a result of an assumption really. What’s done is done, I keep reminding myself, move on!!!!! I had a hard time falling to sleep with those thoughts, but I did and I slept good!!!!! No crazy dreams last night.

Woke up feeling refreshed and ready to start a new day, thank you Lord for all my blessings and strength, Thank you thank you thank you!!!!