The snooze button and off are way to close

What a morning, I hate when I oversleep; it just starts the day off crazy. I had a looong evening last night. Tricia was super emotional and I was very understanding and listened and talked to her. I tried to remind myself about my own feelings when going through this experience, much less going through it the first time. The alarm went off this morning and instead of snooze I hit OFF and went back to sleep. Not only did I go back to sleep I went in to dream status, not good. So, I jumped out of bed and ran in to the girls room, rushing them along. Got out the door and was only 10 minutes late, whoooo. Thank goodness there was nothing going on as far as me needing to meet someone. It’s only 1000 and I am ready to go. This week so far as been a lot on the emotional side.

More than anything I want to start working out regularly too and it’s always one thing after another that seems to be enough to hinder this process. I think next week when school starts I will be able to maintain some what of a more normal schedule. I am mentally exhausted too, which doesn’t help. I think I will make a schedule and then I will know what needs to get done and will do it. I am planning on making a chore list for the girls to follow too. Once school starts they will have 90 minutes, maybe a little more home until I get there to get chores and homework done.

Well, it’s been about 6 weeks, I think, since Ryan and I terminated anything that was there and I think I am doing pretty well. I am no longer taking sleeping pills and that seems to be working out. I am not having all the thoughts I did wither of him and the worries. I am working on ME and making my daughters’ and I the focus of my life, long over due. I miss sex and attention, but I am working on getting over it and finding other ways to sooth my soul. I feel good and that’s all that matters today!